Chapter 405: Xiao Yi's Account of His Past Life (Ending)

I rushed over, calling out her name and quickly untied the ropes that bound her. I held her in my arms and said, "Yuan Xi, I'm here. Don't be afraid..."

But she did not answer, lying motionless in my arms, her smile gone, her anger vanished; her face had lost all color.

In the small swaddled bundle beside us, blood was slowly seeping out. Even if the dark guards did not speak, I knew that was our child.

Logically speaking, I should feel sad about the death of the child.

However, at this moment, my heart cannot stir even the slightest ripple; this child, when alive, was the fruit of our love, and now that she is gone, she no longer represents anything.

```htmlI picked her up and slowly walked out of the room, looking at the two people kneeling in the courtyard. I thought my eyes must be filled with hatred.

They seemed to be caught off guard by how much I cared for her. When they saw me carry her out, their surprise was evident in their eyes.```

```htmlI walked over, looking at the obvious terror in their eyes, and suddenly laughed.

My face must have looked crazy and sinister, I thought.

I held her in my arms and said with a smile, "Since you don't want to live any longer, I can't stop you, can I? How about this, being sliced a thousand times should suit you well." ```

“If they had died from one less cut, or if they had died only after one more cut, you should know the consequences.” After saying that, I slowly carried her out of the courtyard.

Yuanxi, you see, I’ve avenged you against those who bullied and hurt you. Wake up, wake up, please?

```htmlIn my arms, she showed no signs of life, not even reacting, even when faced with the one she once despised the most—me, she didn't spring up to escape.

If I had stayed in Kyoto to take good care of her, would she have not died?```

For the first time, I felt a longing for that position.

If I were to sit in that position, would I be able to do whatever I wanted?

Now, the Great Flame Kingdom is in a time of peace, and my father has long since lost his earlier helplessness. It is also because of him and because he sent me to resolve matters in other places that I couldn't stay by her side.

If, if I sit in that position, will I be able to be with her forever?

Holding her who had long since lost her breath, I sat in the Prince's residence for an entire night. As dawn broke, I seemed to see her for the first time, her young face filled with anger.

Perhaps the emperor has already learned of her death, or perhaps he has been waiting for this day all along.

So when I stormed into the Golden Throne Hall with my shadow guards, forcing him to abdicate in front of the civil and military officials, there was no trace of surprise on the emperor's face; instead, there was a deep sense of guilt.

Guilt, can guilt bring back a living her?

Regarding my father, I initially resisted him, then we reached a harmonious coexistence, and now I harbor resentment; I have never regretted any of it.

I only regret that I did not boldly refuse his imperial edict at the risk of offending the world.

So I took my seat in that position, holding her, who had a pale face, as I sat on the dragon throne for my first day in court.

Looking at the terrified yet hesitant faces of the civil and military officials below, I felt a surge of exhilaration for the first time in the past two days.

Yuanxi, look, now that I've reached this position, no one dares to speak against us.

Yuanxi, it's great that we can be together forever.

On the first day of the morning court, I held her and took the royal carriage to the state where I had been before she gave birth.

Because I returned in a hurry, I didn't thoroughly resolve this matter at all.

But now, I'm not here to resolve this matter.

Gently touching her soft cheek, I leaned down and pressed a kiss on her lips, "Yuanxi, wait for me, I will avenge you."

After raising my head again, I said to the dark shadows beside me, “Go ahead, leave not a single one alive, not even the chickens or dogs.”

Dark Shadow and Dark Night naturally obeyed my command, even though they believed that I had already fallen into madness at this point.

```htmlYes, I am indeed trapped in madness.

At the moment I realized she could no longer survive, I was already trapped in madness.

The me now is no longer me; even if I direct my hatred towards this state for her sake, I don't think there's anything absurd about it.```

Yes, I blame this state because of its people I lost the chance to protect her. So now I will kill them, letting them accompany her to the grave!

Since there is fear, then let it go on forever, even if I go underground, I want them to continue to live in fear.

The sounds of panic, screams, and shouts gradually echoed, but to my ears, they were so pleasant, so delightful.

The sunset descends, dyeing the sky in red, as if the entire state were bathed in blood red, just like the bright and beautiful red wedding dress I personally put on her.

Yuanxi, this is the wedding dress I prepared for you. Look, isn't it beautiful?

Yuanxi, look, these people are the murderers who caused your death; they will not live. I will make them all pay the price.

They all deserve to die, they all deserve to die!

Who should be killed and who should die will be decided by me; even if it brings condemnation from the world, I don't care!

In a daze, I seemed to recall a saying.

“Let me bear this world with my heart… it might as well be…”

Extending my finger, I gently traced her soft cheek, lowering my head to look at her, my eyes filled with smiles; this saying truly resonated with my thoughts.

Of course, the events in Chuzhou couldn't be hidden, and I didn't intend to hide them.

This matter was known by the entire Great Flame Nation.

So they also knew that the newly ascended emperor of the Great Flame Nation, Xiao Yi, which is me, is a madman.

I don't care; a madman is just a madman, what's the big deal?

Without her, my life will no longer have any color.

Without her, everything I do will lose its meaning.

Without her, I am no longer myself, Xiao Yi, I am no longer Xiao Yi.

Without her, even if I sit in this position, I do not feel happy or joyful.

What I want, from the age of thirteen to now at twenty-one, and even until I die, is only her!

God knows how much I regret not telling her, even just once, while she was alive and awake... I love you!

The day after the slaughter in Zhuzhou, I abdicated.

I handed the throne to my ninth brother, Xiao Yun, then cremated her, collected her ashes into an urn, which I wore around my neck, and finally, I also carried her portrait with me.

I once had a dream to travel the world's mountains and rivers with her, leaving our footprints in every place.

Although she is no longer alive, even in death, I will carry her with me to explore the entire world.

If one day you encounter a man on the street, dressed in white, with an urn hanging from his chest, holding a painting in his arms, softly murmuring to the urn on his chest.

Then you mustn't doubt it, this is me.

Do you know?

Do you know how much

I love you?

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