Truth and Debt

The days are getting colder and winter is soon upon us.
“真是舒服。”
在医院拆开纱布的赵磊活动了一下酸疼的胳膊，对着旁边的两人笑着说。
“哦，那看样子我是不用忍受帮某人洗臭袜子的生活喽。”
韩秉轩也是一脸如释重负的表情。
“嘿嘿，其实如果你想的话，一直帮我洗也不是不可以。”
赵磊一副不好意思和勉为其难的表情，让韩秉轩差点没忍住抽这孙子。
"Okay, I have to go now. I still have some things to do. Gu Siyu, take care of your cousin."
Han Bingxuan said casually, but the truth was that he was still avoiding Gu Siyu.
顾思雨在赵磊骨折的这段时间还是一如既往的过来照顾他们两，韩秉轩也就这么躲了她两个月。
“等等，韩秉轩，我带你去一个地方。”
Gu Siyu stopped him and Han Bingxuan turned to see the tense expression on Zhao Lei's face, feeling confused.
Gu Siyu directly pulled him out of the ward, and Zhao Lei hurriedly followed.
血液科门口。
顾思雨轻声说道：“你知道我有多喜欢你吗？”
韩秉轩低下头，默然不语，他不敢回答。
顾思雨眼睛里慢慢起了雾，继续说道：“我喜欢你，是很喜欢很喜欢的那种，是那种明明知道你不喜欢我，我还可以一直喜欢你的那种。”
"I like you just as much as you like Chen Xuejie."
Han Bingxuan still didn't say anything. Zhao Lei, who was standing beside him, clenched his fists and also became nervous.
"I know that for the past three months, you have been avoiding me. I've always known that you don't like me, and I don't need you to. I just want to be able to look at you quietly, to be near you and gaze at you."
Han Bingxuan lifted his head and pursed his lips, about to say something, but Gu Siyu raised her hand to stop him. Wiping away tears that could not be stopped, Gu Siyu smiled and said:
“Now that my cousin's hand is healed, I know I should leave and I have no reason to bother you anymore. So I have booked a plane ticket for the day after tomorrow to study in England.”
赵磊在她背后伸手轻抚她的背，帮她擦了擦眼泪。
韩秉轩低下头，沉声说了一句：“对不起。”
顾思雨揉了揉通红的眼眶，泪水去断了线的珠子一边向下滑落，却又笑着说。
“没关系，我知道的。”
“我现在只是想和你道一声别，顺便告诉你一件事。”
“你对不起的从来都不是我，而是陈学姐。”
韩秉轩猛然抬起头，一脸的不可思议和疑问。
“你说什么？我什么时候对不起她了？”
顾思雨没有回答他的话，而是说道：“你一直都对不起她的。”
“She has never liked anyone before.”
“Nor has she married anyone, she only wants to be your bride.”
“Do you know why I brought you here? Because she is here every day, fighting leukemia alone.”
"Two years ago, she knew she wouldn't live long."
"Everything she did was actually for the purpose that after she died, you would forget her and wouldn't be sad for her."
"Now, Han Bingxuan, can you tell me that you can't say you didn't let her down?"
韩秉轩蓦然红了眼眶，对着血液科室狂奔而去。
说完这些，顾思雨也仿佛用尽了所有的力气，倒在了赵磊的怀里痛苦。
Zhao Lei gently stroked her shoulder and whispered, "This is what he owes you."
Gu Siyu had tear stains on her face as she said, "No, cousin, he never owed me anything."
Gu Siyu fell asleep soundly in his arms.
Zhao Lei helped her sit down and made her comfortable in his arms, looking towards the hematology department.
Inside, there was the person whom his sister loved most and a rival whom she was destined to lose to.
He said softly, "Han Bingxuan, the ones you've wronged definitely aren't just Chen Xinmu."