Chapter 998 He Can't Do It

He Xianmen has no experience of actively showing goodwill towards the opposite sex, let alone someone like Zhou Ruo, who belongs to this type. No matter what he says, it seems unnatural and he cannot do it as effortlessly as her in male-female relationships, being able to connect with any topic that comes up.
He Xianmen remained in a state of indecision for the next few hours, until the clock struck midnight and he still couldn't say the words "happy birthday."
He Xianmen looked at the "00:02" on the phone screen, took off his glasses and placed them on the bedside table, and then turned off the light.
As expected, he had another sleepless night, only getting less than four hours of sleep.
At six o'clock, the sky outside was dimly lit, and the autumnal London began to be frequently overcast. Today the weather was foggy and the conditions were poor.
When He Xianmo sat up, he again remembered that Zhou Ruo was going to see Zeng Xu for a medical examination today. He felt a bit anxious and suddenly got up from bed, wanting to rush to the hospital immediately.
He Xianmen walked into the bathroom and turned on the cold water, continuously splashing it on his face. After a few rounds, his brain finally became somewhat clear. He lifted his head and looked at his face in the mirror, which was still dripping with water. His pupils contracted, and his fingers tightly grasped the edge of the sink.
He cannot let himself continue like this.
Since it's a game, he also needs to adopt a playful attitude - he has accepted the conditions proposed by Zhou Ruo, Zhou Ruo can go find other men, and he can also find other women, their relationship is completely fair. His moral bottom line is too high, he actually wants to treat her like a girlfriend.
There is no need.
He stood before the mirror calmly for nearly ten minutes, then began brushing his teeth.
He tidied himself up as usual, had a simple breakfast in the kitchen, and then went to the nearby library.
He Xianmen usually spends most of his weekends in the library reading books, except for outdoor activities. But since Zhou Ruo appeared in his life, he has hardly been to the library.
Today, when he came again, the familiar librarian saw him and couldn't help but ask a few more questions. "Arthur, long time no see, what happened recently?"
Hu Xianmen: "I am quite busy with work."
Librarian: "I understand. I have missed you and am happy to see you again."
The librarian is a kind old man in his sixties, a local in London. He used to be a doctor before retiring. Hu Xianmen often comes here, and they have become close friends despite their age difference.
He Xianmen greeted him and then went to the bookshelf to fetch a book.
After coming to the library, He Xianmen switched his phone to silent mode and put it in the drawer below while reading, and he didn't take it out throughout the whole process.
He is a very focused person and won't think about anything else once he comes to the library.
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Reading can completely calm a person down. He Xianmo hasn't come for a long time and has stayed in the library all day. He didn't even have lunch, just drank a latte.
After the sky outside darkened, He Xianmo finished reading the second book.
He closed the book and glanced out of the window. The street outside had lit up with streetlights, so it should be past 6:30.
After a day of reading, He Xianmo felt that most of the distractions in his heart had disappeared, and he was not as restless as before. Even when he thought of Zhou Ruo, there would not be too much emotional fluctuation.
Of course, he also knows deep down that this calmness is likely only temporary, but even if it's just for this moment, he is content.
After leaving the library, He Xianmo plans to go to the supermarket to buy some things and cook himself a meal at home.
He had just got on the car when he received a call from his hospital department colleague.
"Arthur, one of your patients has come to the emergency room. I don't really know much about his condition. Can you come over?"
Hé Xiǎnmèn fell silent for more than ten seconds. "Oh, wait for me for about fifteen minutes."
"Okay, I'll notify him to wait for you in the emergency room."
"No need," Hé Xiǎnmèn said, "let him come to my office."
The plan to go to the supermarket was disrupted by this phone call, and He Xianmen turned his car around and drove to the hospital.
Due to work reasons, this situation often occurs on his weekends.
But Hexiong Juan's previous approach was basically telephone consultation, asking colleagues on hospital duty to help with issuing test requests or prescription drugs, rarely going there personally.
As for today...
He Xi'an grasped the steering wheel tightly and didn't want to think deeply about the reason.
The library is not far from the hospital. When He Xi'an returned to the hospital, the patient and his family were already sitting and waiting at the office door.
Patients and family members thanked He Xianmin as they saw him approaching.
He Xianmin shook his head and said it was no problem. He led them into the office, inquiring about the patient's condition while turning on the computer.
The patient has undergone coronary artery bypass surgery, but experienced blood clots post-operation due to high cholesterol. Therefore, medication was taken and observed for over a month. After the subsequent examinations showed no issues, the medication was temporarily discontinued.
Today, I felt unwell again, so I hurried to the hospital for a check-up, and it was found that blood clots had appeared in different places.
However, the situation this time is not as serious as last time. Dr. He Xian analyzed it and prescribed medication for the patient.
"Try taking it for three weeks first, and if there is no relief, then schedule a contrast examination."
The patient was very cooperative, and after the follow-up visit, he took the prescription to get the medication.
Soon, only He Xianmen was left in the office. He looked up at Zeng Xu's desk opposite him, his lips tightly pursed.
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Hè Xiǎn mín didn't know how he had unintentionally ended up at Zēng Xù's clinic door.
By the time he realized it, he was already here, with his hand already on the doorknob.
He Xianmen looked down and gave a self-deprecating smile, loosening his grip on his hand.
He knew that the brief calmness before was just an illusion, he still couldn't control his impulses.
Since I received a call from my colleague and rushed to the hospital, I have been out of control on the way.
Fortunately, he still has self-control and woke up at the moment he was about to enter the door.
He stared at the closed door of the consultation room for a few seconds and turned around to leave.
And in the moment he turned around, he suddenly heard a "bang" from inside.
...someone had hit the door.
There was a slight thump in the middle of Hè Xiǎn Mó's brows.
Immediately afterwards, he heard the sound of a woman humming.
A short, low sound, too fast to distinguish.
Then came the voice of Zeng Xu: "Where does it hurt? Here or here?"
He Xianmo suddenly clenched his fist, and the words that Zhou Ruo had said before echoed in his mind again.
She said that he didn't want to play, so she went to play with Zeng Xu.
Today, she was originally going to "see a doctor" with Zeng Xu.
People are always strange like this. Clearly, there are pre-determined things, but when they actually happen, the intensity of emotions doesn't decrease by half.
Hu Xianmen seemed to hear a cracking sound coming from inside his body. He held his breath, turned around, and quickly walked away.
Hu Xianmen briskly walked down the stairs and arrived at the parking lot, with sweat starting to trickle down his forehead and nose.
"Bang," the car door slammed shut. He casually pulled the seatbelt and stepped on the gas, driving towards Zhou Ruo's apartment.