```htmlYou are the best: 5

Lin Chushi turned the storeroom upside down, and Nie Han's face showed a hint of helplessness, but he didn't stop him.
Yellowed exercise books and exam papers, stacks of certificates, school uniforms and sneakers washed to a pale shade, an exam admission ticket or seating assignment slip from some test, a small robot assembled from simple props, and a few, but neatly bound, movie tickets...```
林初时翻找了一圈，并没有找到什么很确切的证据，嘟嘟囔囔地：“好像也没有什么了……”
聂寒淡淡地：“本来就没有什么。”
At first, Lin was drooping his head and feeling a bit down, but he quickly perked up. He leaned towards Nie Han with a bright and somewhat embarrassed look in his eyes. "So, how did you realize that you like me, and when did you realize it?"
```htmlNie Han paused.
Lin Chushi looked at him eagerly.
Nie Han said, "I don't remember."
Lin Chushi pouted, very disappointed.
Nie Han looked at him, then reached out and ruffled his head for a moment.```
Nie Han cheated him.
After the midterm exam, Nie Han rearranged the seating chart.
Nie Han and Lin Chu were not originally familiar with each other, and sitting together for a month didn't seem to make much progress. When it was time to change seats, they naturally separated, and Lin Chu returned to his group of lively friends.
This "friend" here refers to Bi Yao.
Since high school, Nie Han and Bi Yao have never been on good terms. Bi Yao's actions have caused Nie Han to feel disgusted and dislike him even more. However, during the time when Lin Chushi and him were close, Nie Han often felt uneasy. He initially thought it was because of his strong dislike towards Bi Yao, and as a result, he had an indescribable feeling towards Lin Chushi that he couldn't quite explain if it was avoidance or resistance.
```htmlAfter the two seats were separated, Lin Chu would still come to find Nie Han initially, during class breaks she would lean towards his side. But Nie Han really disliked Bi Yao, and also because of his own unclear feelings towards Lin Chu, sometimes he couldn't even look directly into her eyes. This made him feel inexplicable, and there was a strange sense of unfamiliarity.```
Nie Han is probably not good at interpersonal relationships. He dislikes looking at someone when he dislikes them, and he is cold and hardly says a word when he likes someone. When he is confused about his own feelings and his inner turmoil is unbearable, he still maintains a poker face, appearing calm and unmoving from the outside.
从小到大，聂寒一直很难交到朋友，大概也不是没有原因的。
聂寒对林初时越发地冷淡，甚至是有些避着他了，林初时当然不是没有察觉，渐渐地也就不上赶着来自讨没趣了。
But Lin Chu didn't feel troubled by the lack of a playmate at first. He soon found a new interest and started hanging out frequently with a senior student. The senior often came down to look for Lin Chu, and the two of them sometimes chatted in the corridor outside. Nie Han saw them sometimes turning their heads to laugh and talk, sometimes getting close, and sometimes playing around by bumping shoulders. The posture or atmosphere made Nie Han feel very uncomfortable.
Or it may not just be uncomfortable.
Even after a long time, Nie Han still remembers clearly that it was an afternoon after school, with dusk spreading and enveloping everything in a yellowish glow.
Sure, here's the translation while preserving the original HTML tags:```htmlThat day it was his turn to do the chores, and when he threw the trash into the big trash bin in the corridor, Nie Han walked through the corridor bathed in slanting sunlight. At the corner, in the shadow where the light didn't reach, he saw two boys kissing.```
后来回想的时候，其实聂寒自己也觉得很奇怪，当时那个被亲吻的少年被面前的人给差不多挡完了，而且背着光，照理来说聂寒其实应该看不清楚的。
But he didn't know how, he immediately identified the person kissing the boy as Lin Chushi.
In an instant, the light went out and he saw the two people in the shadows, as if a dark tide was spreading, engulfing him from his ankles up.
林初时是个同性恋。
林初时和别人谈恋爱了。
那时候同性恋其实已经不算稀奇了，甚至没过两年，同性恋婚姻也合法了，同性结婚，其实也没什么了不起。
聂寒也从来没去想过同性恋有哪里不对，因为他压根儿没有想过这方面。
但是在得知林初时不仅是个同性恋，并且在和人谈恋爱的时候，聂寒还是从头到脚，从心底里感到了一阵强烈的不适，那种不适裹挟着一种没有来由的酸疼和恼怒的潮流，但他很清楚自己的不适没有来由，更没有立场，所以那股不适只能淤积在他的四肢和心头，找不到出口，唯有对着林初时本人的时候，会翻涌起来，忍不住地浮上面皮，使他连最基本的冷漠外壳也难以维持。
At that time, it was the school's anniversary and they were rehearsing for the evening party. Lin Chushi and that senior were both hosts and often met each other. They were both famous figures in the school, and the two of them always gathered together, which naturally sparked rumors. That senior also often made suggestive moves, either putting his arm around Lin Chushi's shoulder or holding her waist, as if wanting everyone to know that they were a couple. It was very obvious what he intended, just like a dog marking its territory with urine.
聂寒看着就心烦，十分地不齿，心里翻山倒海，面上却仍是冷冷地无动于衷，只在心里想着，这俩人什么时候才分手，看着就糟心。
It was as if hearing the curse in Nie Han's heart. Lin Chushi's romance with that senior was announced in a very high-profile manner, but it did not last long.
It was brief and only lasted for the month leading up to the school anniversary. On the night the anniversary ended, the couple happily broke up.
On the day of the school anniversary celebration, Nie Han was not interested in these activities and usually self-studied in the classroom during such times. But he went to the auditorium for once.
During the two-hour event, he saw Lin Chu on stage, wearing a well-fitted suit that defined his waist and made his legs look longer. His long hair was half-tied behind his head, making his striking appearance even more noticeable. He was so young, only seventeen years old, but he shone brilliantly, poised and confident in front of thousands of people.
有多少人是和聂寒一起看着他，目光随着他起伏，不舍挪动一分。
而站在林初时身边的那个人，又该有多么的自得，难怪要昭告天下，难怪要四处炫耀。
That was probably the first time in Nie Han's life that he had truly tasted the bitterness of jealousy.
Nie Han sat in his seat, motionless, until the end of the evening party. He watched as Lin Chu smiled and all the staff went up on stage for a group photo, and then he was pulled down the stage by that senior brother, and went somewhere else together, but Nie Han didn't know where they went.
When Nie Han sat in the audience for a long time and his legs were numb, he was urged to leave and finally stood up and left the hall.
He carried his backpack and walked through the silent campus after everyone had left, but the thoughts in his mind were not calm. Lin Chushi was still in his mind, talking and laughing, causing his heart to beat rapidly and his ears to ring.
他在经过学校后门一出小巷的时候，听到了林初时的声音，一时间差点以为幻听还没有结束。
但他脚步还是停了下来，目光顺着发出声音的方向看过去，就看到了林初时和那个学长站在一起，两人之间传来争吵的声音。
He clearly heard Lin Chushi say, "Let's break up."
The other party seemed to be stimulated by Lin Chushi's words, raised his hand and pressed it against the wall behind Lin Chushi, and then leaned down.
被聂寒扔出的书包正砸在后脑勺，往侧边摔下去。
聂寒收回手，重新背起书包，脊背不自觉地绷紧了，他微侧过下巴，看了一眼仿佛是呆住的林初时，冷冷说：“还不走？”
Lin Chushi was like waking up from a dream, and rushed out of the alley in a panic.
Nie Han stood up straight, and started fighting with the senior who also got up from the ground.
When Nie Han came out of the alley again, he was slightly bruised and his clothes were dusty. He licked his numb teeth with his tongue, and they felt loose. With a dark expression on his face, he was clearly not in a good mood.
Who knew that in the next second, Lin Chushi would jump out of the slash and appear in front of him.
Nie Han paused, feeling a moment of panic that he didn't have time to tidy up his facial expression. But he forgot that he didn't originally have much expression, so he didn't really need to make an effort to tidy up.
Lin Chushi deliberately waited here to see if he was okay and to thank him again.
He unconsciously tightened his back and didn't say a word.
Lin Chushi wasn't angry either. For some reason, he followed him like an undetachable little tail.
Nie Han said he had to go home.
Lin Chushi surprisingly said he would accompany him.
Nie Han wanted to tell him, "You don't have to do this to thank me,"
but the words rolled on his tongue and were swallowed by him.
He remained silent and walked a long way with Lin Chu. They arrived at the bus stop together.
On that winter night, with the wind blowing, they waited together under the bus stop. Nie Hanwei lowered his head and saw that his school uniform was a little dirty, but strangely, he didn't feel bad at all. Instead, he felt a wonderful sense of relaxation and joy that he had never felt before.
The bus arrived and Lin Chushi escorted him all the way onto the bus. As the bus drove away, Nie Han turned back and saw Lin Chushi still standing there, seemingly giggling for no apparent reason. She waved at him with all her might through the window.
聂寒手指尖难以克制地动了动，但最后并没有抬起来，只是嘴唇轻轻地动了动，无声地喊了一遍林初时的名字。
就在那时候，四肢仿佛有电流经过，引起阵阵的麻意，那些被堵塞于内的种种情绪，统统找到了出口，倾泻而出。
他非常突然，又很清醒地认识到了一个事实。
原来他喜欢林初时啊。
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