You Are the Best: 6 (This Side Story Ends Here)

That was a matter from a distant teenage era, filled with silliness and immaturity, mixed with dark jealousy and unwillingness, truly not worth boasting about. Now that Nie Han is older, he feels much more mature and more understanding, and he does not wish for his beloved to recall his previous childishness, nor the many foolish things he had done.
He held Lin Chushi's hand firmly and said, "Let's go, it's time to head out."
Lin Chushi, still unwilling to give up, was being led by the hand and kept looking back, but ended up not paying attention to the road. As a result, she accidentally kicked something, sending it flying and sliding straight into a gap under a cabinet.
两个人都停下来，林初时不等聂寒反应，就很迅速地说：“……我去捡回来！”
便跑到柜子前，趴下 身，手直接伸到缝隙里，扒拉扒拉，扒了一手灰的同时，也扒拉到了一个东西。
林初时掏出来，是一个硬壳笔记本。
林初时有些莫名，这好像也不是他踢进去的东西啊。
聂寒看见了，总是冷静镇定的脸色，却一下微微变了。
Lin Chushi brushed off the dust on top and curiously asked Nie Han, “What is this? How did it fall in there?”
Nie Han replied, “It probably fell in by accident.”
He extended his hand, asking Lin Chushi to give it to him.
林初时没给，眨眨眼睛：“这个不会是你的日记本吧？”
聂寒没应他，但瞬间变僵的脸色显然说明了一切。
林初时瞬间像偷到腥的猫，嘿嘿一笑，晃了晃日记本，对聂寒说：“我可以看吗？”
聂寒冷冷地看着他，简直有些像瞪了。
但林初时现在胆子很肥，很不怵地迎面对上聂寒的目光，还卖乖似的撒娇：“看一眼，就看一眼嘛，读书的时候我们都没怎么接触，我对你了解好少。”
Nie Han's lips were pressed tightly into a line as he glared at Lin Chushi, feeling that this person clearly knew how to deal with him most effectively now, openly taking advantage of the fact that he had no way to counter him, and couldn't bring himself to say no.
僵持片刻，聂寒伸手指捏了捏眉心，以一种万事皆空的虚无语气，说：“看了给我放回去。”
说完转身便走。
他实在不想亲眼回顾十年前的自己是怎么犯蠢的。
聂寒先洗了个澡，冷静了一下，然后脚步一转，去了书房，借此逃避现实。
一直呆到过了零点，聂寒觉得自己心理防线建设得差不多了，应该不会在林初时面前垮掉，遂重新摆好一张沉稳冰块脸，回到卧室。
The only light on in the room was a bedside floor lamp, dimly lit. Lin Chushi was already lying on the bed, with a lump under the covers, her back facing Nie Han, seemingly fast asleep.
聂寒不由得微松口气，他放轻脚步，也上了床。
手臂习惯性地伸出，将人揽进自己怀里。
怀里的人配合地主动翻了个身，面对着他。
Nie Han: "..."
Lin Chushi smiled widely.
Nie Han maintained his expressionless face: "Still not asleep?"
Lin Chushi reached out and hugged him, wrapping her legs around him like a koala. She pressed close to Nie Han and said softly, "I'm waiting for you."
聂寒看着他，心里微叹口气，拿对方的撒娇毫无办法，他伸出手，摸了摸林初时的脊背。
林初时舒服地哼唧，身体柔软地契合在聂寒怀里，触碰聂寒下巴的嘴唇也很柔软，充满了甜蜜。
```htmlNie Han stroked his back, the Adam's apple rolling up and down once, then he let out a low and hoarse sound: "Hmm?"
Suddenly so obedient, so clingy.
Lin Chushi smiled with his eyes curved, his fluffy head rubbed against his chest in a circle, then he said: "It's nothing, I just really like you." ```
Nie Han's hand paused as he stroked his back, feeling a bit complicated; he was both moved and reluctant to recall what was written in that diary.
The other person didn't give him a chance to ponder, continuing softly and gently, "Are you going to sit in the auditorium until everyone leaves?"
Nie Hanhua took a moment to realize what Lin Chushi was saying, and for a moment, she was completely frozen, not saying a word.
Lin Chushi continued, "We watched the same movie, and I wasn't even aware of it."
Nie Han was silent, his fingers brushing through Lin Chushi's hair, tucking it behind his ear.
Lin Chushi's eyes turned slightly red as she looked at him, her voice softer: "We used to have a photo together."
就是放在他家里，他和家人在一起，聂寒半隐藏在树影里的那张。
他到现在才知道，这些都不是巧合。
也到现在才知道，在过去他不知道的那些时光里，有个人默默地看着他，爱了他这么长的时间，而他却这么迟钝，过了很久很久才发现。
Lin Chushi whispered, "Can you give me that little robot again?"
That was originally a graduation gift prepared by Nie Han. He wanted to reconcile with Lin Chushi during graduation, and if the atmosphere was right, perhaps he could even confess his feelings. However, all of this was interrupted by Lin Shuoqiu. Nie Han threw the gift into the trash can, but then picked it up again and placed it in a corner where it wouldn't be noticed. Perhaps the young boy thought that if it was out of sight, it could be considered as nonexistent.
But it is still there, never disappearing, just like that person stubbornly stays in his heart.
Nie Han gently wiped the damp, slightly red corner of Lin Chushi's eye with his fingertip, then kissed it softly and said, "What he did was not good; I'll give you something better."
第二天林初时醒来，室内的光不算很亮，一幅画沐浴着温柔的晨光，画里是个少年，反坐在一把椅子里，右手往嘴里送一只樱桃，左手向前伸出，日光和露水落在他的眼睫发梢上，模糊而朦胧，闪闪地发着亮。
He was eating cherries, but his eyes were looking ahead, both his lips and eyes were smiling, and his outstretched left hand seemed to be welcoming someone.
Lin Chushi stared blankly at the painting; if he hadn't lost his memory, this painting should be the one he had won an award for and sold away.
With a gentle turn of the doorknob, Nie Han walked in from outside.
Lin Chushi looked at him, then at the painting at the foot of the bed.
Nie Han walked closer, cupping his face with one hand and placing a kiss on his forehead: "I bought this painting before and I'm giving it back to you now. Is that okay?"
Lin Chushi stared blankly at the person in front of him.
Nie Han gently kissed him.
The young man's affection, if it should be earth-shattering, like a wildfire burning through the forest, when it falls upon Nie Han, is like the torrents beneath a glacier, the magma under a mountain.
Those who are accustomed to self-repression find it very difficult to open up and freely express their emotions.
Ning Han had developed feelings for someone, but his youthful immaturity, along with overwhelming pride and an unwillingness to admit his own cowardice, kept him firmly rooted in place. He pushed away Lin Chushi, who wanted to get closer to him, watching helplessly as she moved further away, filled with anger and resentment, gritting his teeth in frustration.
He seemed like a sealed jar, inside which there was a heart that was heating up, swelling very large, but the opening remained tightly closed. He stubbornly refused to say a word, yet he would not forget, allowing the heat to burn a heart within the jar until after a long time, that heart did not turn to ashes; instead, it was forged into a hard, unyielding stone, impervious and unchanging even through life and death.
好像他的爱从来无声，但是热烈，从来不会冷却。
林初时伸出手，揽住聂寒的脖子，咬住他嘴唇，有些用力地回吻过去。
Two people tangled up, tumbling back onto the bed.
Lin Chushi was pinned under Nie Han, breathing heavily, her voice blurred as she said, “...I want that little robot.”
Nie Han drooped his eyes and looked at him, with a deep shade of black in his gaze: "Why, don't you like this?"
Lin Chushi shook his head, like a little boss, and said, "I want to paint, and I also want a little robot."
“两样我都要，两样我都喜欢。”
不管是以前的你，我也喜欢，现在的你，我也喜欢，因为——
他凑上去，贴住聂寒的嘴唇：
“You are the best.”
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